Damn so I wake up another day

wonder what is coming to hit me today.

I sit back and just shake my head sitting in the edge of the bed.

I look like I never pay attention but the greatest asset of a

Ninja is the art of making it look like your not absorbing everything that is said.

So my mind is racing and decisions are made.

I excelled in chess but besides Playstation games were never played.

As I reflect ponder and rationalize all of my moves

We live by the mantra be to cool your going to lose.

Life is a gamble and sometimes you roll snake eyes

But shit you need to fall back regroup and recognize.

That tomorrow isn't promised
shit where I'm from the next minute isn't either to be honest.

And I have been face to face with the reaper and please believe I don't want to see em again no time soon.

Yes I am loyal but I won't compromise me to be someone's buffoon.

So as I get older.

So grows the chip on my shoulder.

My heart's temperature gets colder.

You look up and you don't seize the moment your chance is over.

So don't ask me why am I so dark the blows of life have made me this way.

Yes I am full of pain and doubt the sting like the barbs of a stingray.

So I bury myself in work just to take my mind off of the the void.

Some worry that my ability to love is long since gone and some say is totally destroyed.

So I stole a trick of of Kurt Wagners theory and transmuted my heart into a different dimension.

Way to late to save it as the world stands might as well put into a cryogenic suspension.

So I have love for my family and my crew.

By three sons get my all God forbid they are all I have no matter what I do.

So yes I am saying I ain't built for this world of love and relationships.

No matter how hard I try.

This is how I feel if you really know me your not going to ask me why!!!!